...of feeling sick everyday, not being able to sleep, and having people think I have some mental disorder (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Asperger_syndrome).
Yeah, I'd have to agree that there is something wrong with me, but the hell if I know what it is. Some things have been afflicting me for so long now that they seem to be the 'normal', to the point where I can't remember a time when they were any different. And sleep....don't get me started on sleeping.
Every morning, when I wake up, my sheet and the heavier cover - once aligned - are completely separated. The sheet is all twisted, the cover is flipped so the 'design' is face down. And my pillows, well, they are all over the place. And that's with only maybe 4 hours of sleep. It takes me hours to fall asleep, and then I usually start waking up around 4PM or earlier, depending on whether its a 'good' night or not. Today, I was up for good at 5:30 AM and ended up getting out of bed at 6, unable to lay around anymore. I got into work at 7AM, 2 hours before anyone else will even show up. Which is why I am sitting here in a stupor writing this.
The weekends are no different. I was actually able to lay around until 8AM on Saturday before getting out of bed! Thats the first time in a long time i've been able to do that and not go crazy. Funny, since I lack the motivation to get up and exercise.
So yeah, I am tired of it all. Somethings wrong with me and I don't know what and am not going to do anything about it.
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