I hate how complicated things get.
My note apparently did the trick, she left me one with her phone number, and we ended up cuddling on her bed. It was the first of three nights in a row we slept in the same bed together. She was in my bed the last night and I walked her to her car to send her on her way at 5AM. I noticed she had kept the note I had given her too and gave her a last parting kiss.
Am I supposed to call her? Pursue her over the vast distance that seperates us? I haven't been this interested in anyone in over 2 years and this situation is all new to me, but I have no guidance or clue as far as what to do.
Me, being a realist, thinks that nothing will happen out of it, that it is best not to pursue as it was a 'one time thing', and would never work due to distance and rarity of seeing each other etc...and that being Hayleys roommate is too weird for her.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Monday, August 3, 2009
Life
So life has an odd way of throwing curveballs at you, all at unexpected times.
Two weeks ago today my dad had his second heart surgery, this time one to replace a valve with a bovine valve and to have his Aorta replaced by a synthetic Aorta. I mean, holy cow, his fucking AORTA was replaced? The most major, vital blood artery in your entire body. Pretty serious stuff, and modern medicine is just amazing. I hate to think about the person who was the very first test subject for that type of surgery. The surgery went off without a hitch, apart from a stroke my dad suffered during it.
I saw him in the hospital before they knew he had a stroke and he was struggling just to give one word answers. After an MRI they discovered it had been a 'mild' stroke that was affecting his speech. In the 2 weeks its been since then, he has gotten progressively better despite his most unusual vocabulary. The best way to describe it is 'Sophisticated Englishman'. He has been using words i have never heard from him before, but at least he is able to respond relatively quickly now and can talk in sentences, though when answering a question it takes him a bit of time to respond.
Its been especially hard on my mom but luckily my older sister was down her for the surgery, and my younger sister arrived in time to take my dad home once he was released. I don't think he should come back to work for at least a month since he really needs and deserves an extended vacation free from the stress of work. He normally works 7 days a week which can't be good for him given his known heart conditions.
On the other end of the spectrum, I've fallen quite hard for a girl from Boston who happens to be my room mates best friend and has been staying with us for the past week and will be here through thursday morning before heading home to Boston. Its very rare for me to be able to say some one has a funnier accent then I (living in Florida, I have an English/NewJersey Accent and am immediately labeled a foreigner). She is a really amazing girl and we seemed to click right away. Well, after I got over the shock of coming downstairs and finding a stranger sitting on my couch (my room mate not having informed me anyone would be staying with us - good thing I wasn't walking around naked!).
Me being me, I am incapable of pulling a move despite getting the impression that she likes me. But half the time I think a girl is into me, I am usually wrong, so that has been holding me back. IF she does like me, she must think me quite the fool and rather incompotent by now. There is no doubt in my mind that she knows that I like her and I even - being the idiot I am - wrote her a note last night and slipped it under her door for her to read today. I figure that its about 8:30AM right now, so i've got at least 3, if not 4, hours before she gets up and reads it, with another 4 to 5 hours before I get home and have to 'face the music' if she has any sort of reaction to it. FYI, it was just basically asking her out to a movie or something tonight w/o the room mate tagging along. I feel like I am in highschool again. >.<
So yeah, two extreme curves at basically the same time. No wonder I've gotten only 10 hours of sleep since wednesday night.
Two weeks ago today my dad had his second heart surgery, this time one to replace a valve with a bovine valve and to have his Aorta replaced by a synthetic Aorta. I mean, holy cow, his fucking AORTA was replaced? The most major, vital blood artery in your entire body. Pretty serious stuff, and modern medicine is just amazing. I hate to think about the person who was the very first test subject for that type of surgery. The surgery went off without a hitch, apart from a stroke my dad suffered during it.
I saw him in the hospital before they knew he had a stroke and he was struggling just to give one word answers. After an MRI they discovered it had been a 'mild' stroke that was affecting his speech. In the 2 weeks its been since then, he has gotten progressively better despite his most unusual vocabulary. The best way to describe it is 'Sophisticated Englishman'. He has been using words i have never heard from him before, but at least he is able to respond relatively quickly now and can talk in sentences, though when answering a question it takes him a bit of time to respond.
Its been especially hard on my mom but luckily my older sister was down her for the surgery, and my younger sister arrived in time to take my dad home once he was released. I don't think he should come back to work for at least a month since he really needs and deserves an extended vacation free from the stress of work. He normally works 7 days a week which can't be good for him given his known heart conditions.
On the other end of the spectrum, I've fallen quite hard for a girl from Boston who happens to be my room mates best friend and has been staying with us for the past week and will be here through thursday morning before heading home to Boston. Its very rare for me to be able to say some one has a funnier accent then I (living in Florida, I have an English/NewJersey Accent and am immediately labeled a foreigner). She is a really amazing girl and we seemed to click right away. Well, after I got over the shock of coming downstairs and finding a stranger sitting on my couch (my room mate not having informed me anyone would be staying with us - good thing I wasn't walking around naked!).
Me being me, I am incapable of pulling a move despite getting the impression that she likes me. But half the time I think a girl is into me, I am usually wrong, so that has been holding me back. IF she does like me, she must think me quite the fool and rather incompotent by now. There is no doubt in my mind that she knows that I like her and I even - being the idiot I am - wrote her a note last night and slipped it under her door for her to read today. I figure that its about 8:30AM right now, so i've got at least 3, if not 4, hours before she gets up and reads it, with another 4 to 5 hours before I get home and have to 'face the music' if she has any sort of reaction to it. FYI, it was just basically asking her out to a movie or something tonight w/o the room mate tagging along. I feel like I am in highschool again. >.<
So yeah, two extreme curves at basically the same time. No wonder I've gotten only 10 hours of sleep since wednesday night.
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